checking in: hyc week 14

A funny week so far.

Work: Stressorama!! Suffice to say it's not been fun and has left little time or brain space for blogging or working my stuff through... or my photography homework for that matter.

Food: Shaky but stable. I've had a few food panics and even a couple of fleeting binge fantasies but fantastically no actual blowouts. I even put the most ridiculous amount of temptation in my own way by making banana cake at the weekend - very yummy - I calorie calculated and weighed every bite so that it fitted in with the day's plans. Pretty proud of that.

Exercise: Pretty happy with my efforts but a mixed bag mentally. I went to spin class on Saturday and Sunday. Sunday was the crazy European again. Boy is that class intense... in a fantastically painful but brilliant way. On monday my sweet free personal training deal was finally broken. There were two of us in boxercise class.

My partner was somewhere around 6 feet tall (perhaps I exagerate, well possibly, but definitely later in her stilettos), slim, beautiful and with the most perfect boobs you've ever seen (sorry, but they *really* were). I was completely intimidated and just wished she wasn't there.. or that I could eat a donut. Don't get me wrong, she was absolutely lovely - it wasn't her, it was me. Such a mixture of feelings involved here, even if when I get to goal I'll never have her body or anything close to it. My own boobs are already deflating and what's left isn't pretty (sorry tmi). I did that to myself, no one but me, it's a confronting thought and a lot to take in. And, anyways, isn't this all about being healthy (both physically and emotionally) and not about some false body-perfect aspiration? So why did I let it bother me so much?

Anyway, back to see how it all added up. HYC weigh-in time.

today's weight: 101.9kg / 225lb / 16st 1lb
loss of: 0.9kg / 2lb
total loss this year: 14.1kg / 31lbs

In truth the scale varied between 101.8 and 102.2 but who's counting. Still fab!

And finally, this week's photography assignment is all about relationships so, at the special request of Miss Milo, here's a couple of pics of our boys and their own love hate relationship.


NotJustLaura said...

Congratulations on your weight loss. And your boys are gorgeous.

Anonymous said...

Your weight-loss is kuhraaaazy!!! LOL Good job!

Mama Bear June said...

You've done an amazing job losing weight this year! And don't compare your body to others. What you have is what you have and you can make it the BEST it can be with healthy choices.
Path to Health

Cammy said...

It WAS a fab week! Here's wishing you another one to go with it!

AlleyCat said...

Beautiful Kitties!!!!!! Well done on the loss & the Banana Cake restraint despite a stressful week. Job Well Done!

JanetM97 said...

Congrats on the great loss! LOL on our matching banana cakes. (I linked my recipe if you still wanted it.)

Forget the woman at the gym. Be proud of your own amazing self! ( but I hear you on the boob thing. Hate losing what I do have as I drop sizes. Eesh! No fair! Ok being proud of myself again.) :P

Anonymous said...

Awww, your boys are so beautiful (even when they are trying to bite each other's heads off!). I want to meet them!! They look so soft and shiny :)

You should be so proud of yourself for all your hard work this week, especially considering all the stress you've been under. You're so close to getting under 100 - can you almost taste it? :)

I've had so many similar experiences with 'beautiful people'. There's a girl who lives in our block of flats, and she has a perfect figure and is blonde and bubbly and probably the envy of every girl she meets. Because of my low self-esteem, I always expect her to be bitchy and condescending towards me -- even after several years of living in the same block, I still get surprised when she actually stops to chat, compliments me and is genuinely interested in how I'm doing. It's amazing the way a low self-esteem can alter your perception of other people.

Anyway, keep up the great work, lovely lady! You're doing fantastically well :)


Ashwee said...

Hi there!

Well done on the banana cake portion control! It's one of my weaknesses!

As everyone else has said, try not to compare yourself to others. She may have it all goin' on in the looks department but she would have her own insecurities too be it about body image, love life, money, friends, work... whatever, my point is that she isn't perfect.

You're doing all you know how to do to be the best you you can be so cut yourself some slack. Whatever shape you are when you get to goal will be ok. You'll be ok just as you are.

ani pesto said...

I just realised I didn't even say thank you to all you guys. Throughout my normal working day it's rare to receive an email tha makes me smile, but each time I get a blog comment notifications I just beam from the encouragement and support.