the falling hammer

Yesterday was the very worst of days.

We had lay-offs at work. The atmosphere in the office was suffocatingly tense as we watched colleagues go downstairs for meetings with their managers and not come back; all the while hoping with all hope that we weren't about to get a meeting request ourselves.

Not nice. Not nice at all.

The good news is I still have a job. I'll admit I did catch myself wondering if I wouldn't rather the decision had been made for me to force me into a change. But in the current economic and job market, I don’t think that would have been a good idea at all.

The even better news is that stress of the day didn’t drive me to comfort anxiety eat. I will admit the thought did cross my mind, but I managed to stop it from settling in my head as a potential option. I should be proud of that.

I’m not looking forward to today. I have to prepare for a two week packaged client job where I’ll be delivering workshops, demonstrations and reports within a period of 10 days. It’s my first time tackling this and I have to learn all the presentations and demonstration scripts, get my head around the aspects of the subject I don’t yet know and familiarise myself with the report documents I will be required to complete – and we all know my track history with documents (both here and here)!

My thoughts are with all those who lost their jobs yesterday. And with their managers who had to be the messengers.


Miss Milo said...

Oh Ani, what a horrible situation. I feel awful and insensitive for banging on so much about my job anxiety on my blog yesterday when people just down the road were losing theirs :( I hope none of your close colleagues (e.g. your gym buddy) were affected? Still, how absolutely awful that you had to witness that. I bet the tension in the office is unbearable today.

*hugs* to you.

Mama Bear June said...

Sounds like a pretty rough day. Sending hugs your way. Glad you still have a job.
Path to Health

kathrynoh said...

Arrggghhh... been through that a couple of times. It seems cruel to leave ppl sitting around waiting - just tell people and get it over with, I reckon.

Hanlie said...

Glad your job is still safe... What a stressful situation. Over here in South Africa companies are also laying off people and it affects the whole economy!

Well done for handling the day without turning to food. That is huge progress...

Kelly said...

OMG how stressful and very sad. What an awful situation to be in.
Congrats on keeping on track though!
Kel xxx

Fat[free]Me said...

Ugh, times are so hard at the moment and I feel as if so many of us are clinging to our jobs by the skin of our teeth.

Sorry you had such a bad day and good luck with all that preparation you have to do.

Hugs x

wildfluffysheep said...

So sorry to hear about the job losses. But kudos to you for not chanelling the negativity into over eating!

good luck with the job stuff.